Before the Funk Spiral

A heaviness washed over me just after I put CG down for a nap today. Ugh. I could feel myself turning to the what if’s. What if I have an all day funk? What if I don’t turn it around? Oh crap, what if next I’m arguing with Mike, messing up this week and letting myself down? What if I need to go into total retreat, nest, self care mode? 

It felt like out of nowhere and for no reason I was just funky (and not in my fave genre of music way). But was it really out of nowhere? I checked in. Mike was short with me over lunch and I took it personally and absorbed some wacky energy. I was snippy back. That’s when things derailed. 

Thank God I’ve been in such an energetically grounded and protected place that I quickly became aware something was off.

Bc what happens when we’re not aware? The funk gets real nasty. We don’t catch ourselves in the downward funk spiral of what ifs before it turns into full blown anxiety or we manifest exactly what we don’t want by giving it so much attention. 

In this case, I caught it before it knocked me on my ass and I didn’t ignore it.

I simply grounded my energy into my body and mother earth by focusing on my breath. I slowed down, drank water, breathed deeply and with intention. I asked my team Above for help. I checked in to see if I needed permission to do or not do anything. I instantly knew and permission granted. I loved that what came up benefitted my business, even though it was different than what was planned for that time. I was guided there, it was aligned and allowed me to be reflective, creative and have fun! 

Before I knew it 2 hrs had passed and CG was up. My energy was balanced out and I'd been productive, instead of needing to veg out in a gentle cocoon the whole time surrendering to heaviness, maybe even getting funkier, or working to get out.

The bounce back is the beauty of this work. Heck no, it does not always go this smoothly and I’m not 💯 of the time in this aware listening to my body space and I definitely get knocked on my ass. But I was in the space today bc of my consistent practices and it worked out! And for that I’m grateful and totally patting myself on the back. 

What are some of your tools for bouncing back? Do you ever have the experience of catching yourself feeling off before the funk spiral? I’d love to hear what works for you!

Big Hugs!!