Are you feeling this new moon energy?

For days I found myself feeling tired and triggered by things that typically wouldn’t affect me. I was aware of what felt like a hormonal or emotional imbalance. For example after deep cleaning the house I was telling Mike how awesome it felt. He laughed and casually threw out a, “Well then, you should do it more often.” That normally wouldn’t bother me. I might laugh and joke back. I may actually realize yes, he’s right the energy feels so good in our space and I love this feeling. Instead I rolled my eyes, chose to take it personally, and said something dismissive. As I walked away and heard him say, "It was just a joke.” However, I was already internalizing all of it. My inner bully started chatting away, telling me I wasn’t good enough and ridiculing my house keeping skills.

All of a sudden, I realized what was happening. I asked myself, why was I being extra sensitive? There were so many possibilities: maybe my moon time is close, I was working too much, I needed some me-time, or maybe there's heightened emotions universally with the mixed energies of Mother’s Day. I wasn’t sure what was going on, which is ok. It doesn’t really matter why. This is what mattered: something was off, I sensed it was time to be gentle and loving to myself, be aware of what I was feeling and work to consciously protecting and shifting my energy. 

Last night, I found myself working extra hard to be positive and grounded. I felt exhausted and just off my game. So I put an extra clingy CG in Mike’s capable hands (of course she was picking up on my energy too). I attempted to relax in a self-love inspired salt and rose oil bath, I listened to my fave bath music (The Essential Snatam Kaur: Sacred Chants for Healing), and intended to fill my cup and experience a shift. As I laid there I realized I was naturally detoxing. I was super hot, sweaty and chugging water. And then it hit me, and I knew. It wasn’t about filling in this moment, it was about emptying. I needed to create room and space within myself. I needed to release. 

I got out and could feel my body continuing to release and detox. I looked at my red glistening skin and then found my eyes in the mirror. As a new song came on, the tears flowed. I didn’t know what they were about and it didn’t matter. I welcomed the release. It was exactly what I needed. 

After a pep talk with my inner goddess, I took Bear for a walk. It started drizzling and all I could do was laugh. It was perfect. I felt the entire universe wanting to release with me. This is a big reason I wanted to share. Are you also craving a release of tension and emotion?

Later last night, I took CG outside to feel this soft drizzle and she pointed at the sky and said, “moon?” And I knew it. I knew even if the sky wasn’t cloudy we wouldn’t see her. I felt the new moon energy and everything made sense. A quick look on my phone verified it. I did my new moon ritual bath, that I always do, without knowing why. I just intuitively felt my way through. The new moon is when the sky is the darkest and that is reflected in our energy. It’s a wonderful time to shed everything and set intentions for the new moon cycle. 

I would love if you joined me in releasing and setting intentions. 

Have you been feeling off too? Do you have anything to release? How do you release when you need it? What intentions do you have for this next month?

Sending love to all who need it, starting with myself.